paths

I am actually dumbfounded as accolades, some uninvited, are laid at my feet. I never believed much in myself anyway--there will and was always someone better or lousier than I am/was, and I'll always be just a little above average. Call me cynical but that's the way it is. I was never fully sure about any of my paths as well, and I feel I'm losing the spark.

Maybe because I'm currently torn between two paths and about something I used to be so sure about.

Then again, it was only society that said I can't take both. And I've almost always disregarded those constructs anyway.